Hi I'm back and it's been ages and I apologise for the readers who do view my blog .

This year has been the most eventful, most amazing  and busiest year of my entire life . I've been flying to places including Belgium, Croatia , Denmark and Sweden. I've also been in London 80% of the time collaborating with talented creatives and networking for the makeup Mastered program which I am currently enrolled on whilst working at my job ! I was lucky enough to perform  makeup and shoot in Croatia where I was personally mentored by the photographic producer of Another Mans magazine and meet amazing creatives from all over the world ! It was so empowering flying by myself and the whole trip was a total success. It made me confident enough to travel to Denmark by myself and then Sweden! This year my life has DRAMATICALLY changed and so have I. 

Although my career and status has suddenly blown up in the past 6 months my mental health has not been stable . I think it was a mixture of too much pressure too quick, family health issues and having to jump to one place to another and feeling like I had to yes to every opportunity even if It was mentally exhausting me . It was a massive change for me, a normal 23 year old girl from a small quiet northern town where nothing really happens to then expected to complete brief modules for I-D Magazine and collaborating with other creatives from all over ,to get known and published .If I read this this time last year I'd probably be so surprised to where I've got to and I'd probably tell myself to get a grip and enjoy the experience . Honestly it's a lot more then what it seems.

“She was unstoppable. Not because she did not have failures or doubts, but because she continued on despite them.”
Beau Taplin

A month ago I had very bizarre week ! I was so anxious and I really couldn't understand what was wrong with me .The voice in my head would say  ''this industry is too hard for me '', '' if I don't jump on a coach ( trains are too expensive for me ) to a event or a good opportunity no one will hire me '' , '' This is too overwhelming for me I can't handle this ''. Which i know is so ridiculous because there are people out there who have it worse yet I was stuck in this horrible anxious mind frame. I remember this one particular day so clearly , I was in London one day and I was so miserable and couldn't work out what was wrong with me .My phone was on 10% so I went to Starbucks to charge my phone and grabbed a iced tea.  There was a magazine left on the table in front of me so I picked it up and starting browsing the pages and my eyes instantly glued on one particular page .I can't even remember the name of the magazine but i read a article which basically explained that our health,mentally and physically, is the most important thing and that we should look after it regardless of what happens .It made me realise that we should never neglect ourselves and in my situation i should listen to my body and not over work myself and to not stress myself. I neglected my diet, my passion and my mental health and now them aspects are the only important things to me . It's made me realise that health, as well as love, is the most important thing in the world , more important then materialistic things, career status and money. 

I'm excited for the rest of the year and I'm going to take things more steady, not stress and not try and be perfect , but to  just enjoy the journey and accept if things don't go to plan because everything happens for a reason. You are exactly where you need to be right now. 

I want to revamp my blog and put it to a more deeper level. Yes I love makeup but I don't want it to be just that.  As I've been busy the past year and lost passion for the content I was creating I want my blog to be more me.  Yes I will be posting makeup, but I also want to post other content too!


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